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11 May 2010 @ 11:50 pm
Growing up.  
This is long due.

"I kept wondering all this time," Sora said eventually, leaning back on his hands and tilting his head up to watch the leaves float down. "Why it was, that you were eighteen but you wouldn't tell anyone. That you were an adult but you wouldn't act like it. And then it came to me, and it was so simple--it's because you aren't an adult. You can't stand the idea of it, all that responsibility, of doing things that will matter, that will change the future. When you're a kid, it doesn't matter if you fuck up, because you're just a kid. It's no big deal, there's no permanent record, people expect you to screw up anyway. But when you're an adult, and you fuck up, you have no one to blame but yourself. And there's no one to deal with it but you. No parents, no teachers, no one to tell you what's right and wrong, what the rules are, what path to take. That's a scary thing to face all on your own. It's a scary choice to make, whether you're going to take control and decide your own fate or just let life beat you down and hope for the best."

- Chapter 25, Boys by Casey V.

Boys has got to be one of my favourite, if not THE BEST, fanfic I've EVER read. It doesn't feel like fanfiction. it doesn't feel tacky and cheesy (well with the exception of a few scenes) and not cliched. Its so well written, it could be published as a book and I am CONFIDENT it will sell well.

Something in the fic just resonated with me. Even though I am not 1) a guy 2) gay or 3) a teenager in the 1990s, it just feels so natural and real. There are no forced plots, scenes or lines. Everything just falls into place, and its fucking 26 chapters. Normally I don't pay attention to AU fics (they usually annoy the hell outta me) and there are some drug use (I was iffy about that) BUT MAN. I was so glad I didn't press that back button.

Sora's head was tilted back again, and he laughed at the fluttering leaves. "When you think about it, this is a pretty incredible time. I mean, growing up--that's something you only get to experience once in your life, and then it's gone. And in some ways, maybe that's a good thing, but in others... I don't know, sometimes I want to take these moments that are right on the edge, right on the line in between, and bottle them up so I can keep them forever. We'll never be in this place again, Roxas." He leaned forward suddenly, pushed to his feet and dusted himself off, letting the leaf tumble back to the ground. "It's just a matter of how you're going to continue from here."

At this point (chapter 25) when I read this paragraph, I bawled. Because what it was conveyed here was SO GENUINE. I turned 18 recently, and this is EXACTLY what I feel. I don' t want to grow up, I don't want to be an adult. What Sora said, its just awe-inspiring. The thought and effort that had gone into this fic is just phenomenal, and the events, issues and values conveyed is relevant, even now. (the fear of homosexuality, especially.) Just. Wow.


A Masterpiece.

If you haven't read it, DO IT NOW. I swear you won't regret it, not at all. (Unless you count my new found addiction to AkuRoku)

You can find it here.

And, +39459385739485 points for the hot boy sex, as well as the AkuRoku moments/chapters. <3
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